Grey Matters

I can write these things I am about to because my blog is now protected. It's beena long time since I came here and a lot has happened. But in all that has happened I discovered, reading through my blog, that I havent changed. Now it's a good thing to be the same person you were and not be unpredictable, but when it seems you havent changed because you havent learned anything, then there is an issue. I do not know what God wants me to learn from life and what paths I need to go on. All the things that afflicted and affected me made me withdrawn for a while, but other than the fact that I do not feel the desire to please anyone anymore, my issues are still the same and worse still, my choices as well. I have been very unhappy for most of last week, primarily because of a sexual encounter I had with this guy. I have known him for about as long as I had this blog but now he is married. And we hooked up recently and I feel like I am in love with him. But we had issues when we

These are the actual lyrics to a Beatles song. I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together. See how they run like pigs from a gun, see how they fly. I'm crying. Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come. Corporation t-shirts, stupid bloody Tuesday. Man, you've been a naughty boy, you let your face grow long. I am the eggman (woo), they are the eggmen (woo), I am the walrus, Goo goo ga joob. Mister City P'liceman sitting Pretty little policemen in a row. See how they fly like Lucy in the Sky, see how they run. I'm crying. I'm cry, I'm crying, I'm cry. Yellow matter custard, dripping from a dead dog's eye. Crabalocker fishwife, pornographic priestess, Boy, you been a naughty girl and you let your knickers down. I am the eggman (woo), they are the eggmen (woo), I am the walrus, Goo goo ga joob. Sitting in an English garden waiting for the sun. If the sun don't come, you get a tan from Standing in the E

1. My hairdressers never have to repeat my hairstyles on anyone else. No one ever has the courage to carry it off. 2. Jeans are a major part of my formal attire 3. I'm attracted to guitars 4. I'm totally in touch with my inner child, but I am still definitely an adult. (Only rock stars can walk this thin line.) 5. Kids think I am cool. 6. I love to travel